Where's the Happiness

Walking around town,

Realizing the fantastic sites and stores,

Seeing everything around,

Opening a door to a brand new world,

So amazed like watching a circus or watching a particular clown,

From the tall trees blowing in the wind,

To the snow falling on the ground,

The cold weather hitting my face,

Birds singing a song or woodpeckers making a sound,

Runners and walkers moving at a fast pace,

Kids playing on a playground,

Smiles, giggles, and laughter,

No one has a frown,

Little girls playing with barbies,

Boys playing with hot wheels,

Funny listening to Nemo trying to say anemies,

Or kids with smiles because they have a dollar bill,

Oh what a wonderful day and great view,

My golly a lot of things I saw and a lot of things I could do,

Happiness is all around you,

Where is at,

High or low,

But my question is where in the world did it go,

Falling Under The Weather

I keep trying to tell myself that he really does love me,

As he goes around having fun I continue to try to let my heart free,

These feelings I have for him are driving me insane,

But at least we both know that things were not the same,

I really wanna make things work,

But it seems like we're already done and it hurts,

He's around acting like there wasn't even a we,

I continue to wonder if he had these thoughts before and how could it be,

So now I'm down and I;m slowly picking myself back up, 

Making myself stronger each time dealing with this tough love,

Why can't I ever be in a relationship and be happy,

Cause I'm tired of all dudes falling into the rumors and lies that make my endings sappy,

I continue to ask myself why,

Why me, why I,

Can't find the one to love,

If my past events haven't been enough,

I'm still putting the pieces together,

But it's like trying to connect a bird back with a lost feather,

I guess you can say this guy has made me fall under the weather,

Proud to be American

pretty brown eyes, 

nice brown skin,

questioning why I'm so glad to be african american,

so much history,

on just becoming a race to the society,

so once a long time ago we were looked at like nothing,

but growing up and stepping out we became something,

so much to treasure,

so much to be told,

how is it that they survived so many stories still untold,

the treatment of people, 

the life we live today,

give it up for all the african americans that change their life so we can live this way,

sometimes we think it's not true,

but who really knows, 

we have stories, actions, and news,

they show us who did what they had to do,

so it's kind of bad and good how we live our lives now,

knowing that our elders went through all that pain,

so that we could grow up in a world full of games,

so reflecting on some good and bad things that happened while I stand,

Remembering how many people put their lives on the line,

So that in this future I can finally say I am proud and you should be proud to,

To be any type of american,

Finding Me

Lost far away from home,

In a place unknown,

Cold, deserted like I was place out here on accident,

Where do I go from here all by myself with no type of sense,

Where is my destination,

Seems like I'm a jack in a box, stuck in isolation,

My name is unidentifiable,

My background in the system was never noticeable,

Since I never committed a crime or had been charged with a felony,

At least at this point I feel like laughing but I cant, its just not that funny,

I don't know who I am,

Don't even know where I stand,

Where am I, 

What is my name,

There's something about this place that reminds me of you,

But you don't understand that I am afraid to love you,

Never realizing that you are me on the inside,

So here's my true identity the one thing that I cant hide,

Loving you was all that I could, but what happens when I turn out to be you,

This is a poem that made me realize I had to love myself before anyone else!

Forgiving Him

Feeling lie I could never love a man,

Based on what my father did and is still doing,

Believing that the man I love would soon diss me,

Turn into him with all the drug addictions and consequences, 

Spending time in jail,

Always having his mother on his side to make bail,

I guess I just don't want my heart to get broken again,

Thinking he's the reason that I can't love a man for being him,

Thanking him for believing in me and leaving me alone,

Stood right by my side whenever I was feeling the need to leave home,

Searching wasn't getting me anywhere if I didn't know who I was exactly looking for,

Just knowing that someday he'll come knocking on my door,

Now I know I am fortunate to one day fall in love,

But I can't take what my father did out on him,

Going to church to relieve me of my sins,

Knowing that keeping it all inside,

Shame would always be something that I would try to hide,

This is something that I should have done a long time ago but I know that one day I will get pass the pain and live,

Realizing to live my life peacefully through god, my father I will forgive him