Falling Under The Weather

I keep trying to tell myself that he really does love me,

As he goes around having fun I continue to try to let my heart free,

These feelings I have for him are driving me insane,

But at least we both know that things were not the same,

I really wanna make things work,

But it seems like we're already done and it hurts,

He's around acting like there wasn't even a we,

I continue to wonder if he had these thoughts before and how could it be,

So now I'm down and I;m slowly picking myself back up, 

Making myself stronger each time dealing with this tough love,

Why can't I ever be in a relationship and be happy,

Cause I'm tired of all dudes falling into the rumors and lies that make my endings sappy,

I continue to ask myself why,

Why me, why I,

Can't find the one to love,

If my past events haven't been enough,

I'm still putting the pieces together,

But it's like trying to connect a bird back with a lost feather,

I guess you can say this guy has made me fall under the weather,