Forgiving Him

Feeling lie I could never love a man,

Based on what my father did and is still doing,

Believing that the man I love would soon diss me,

Turn into him with all the drug addictions and consequences, 

Spending time in jail,

Always having his mother on his side to make bail,

I guess I just don't want my heart to get broken again,

Thinking he's the reason that I can't love a man for being him,

Thanking him for believing in me and leaving me alone,

Stood right by my side whenever I was feeling the need to leave home,

Searching wasn't getting me anywhere if I didn't know who I was exactly looking for,

Just knowing that someday he'll come knocking on my door,

Now I know I am fortunate to one day fall in love,

But I can't take what my father did out on him,

Going to church to relieve me of my sins,

Knowing that keeping it all inside,

Shame would always be something that I would try to hide,

This is something that I should have done a long time ago but I know that one day I will get pass the pain and live,

Realizing to live my life peacefully through god, my father I will forgive him