Finding Me

Lost far away from home,

In a place unknown,

Cold, deserted like I was place out here on accident,

Where do I go from here all by myself with no type of sense,

Where is my destination,

Seems like I'm a jack in a box, stuck in isolation,

My name is unidentifiable,

My background in the system was never noticeable,

Since I never committed a crime or had been charged with a felony,

At least at this point I feel like laughing but I cant, its just not that funny,

I don't know who I am,

Don't even know where I stand,

Where am I, 

What is my name,

There's something about this place that reminds me of you,

But you don't understand that I am afraid to love you,

Never realizing that you are me on the inside,

So here's my true identity the one thing that I cant hide,

Loving you was all that I could, but what happens when I turn out to be you,

This is a poem that made me realize I had to love myself before anyone else!

Forgiving Him

Feeling lie I could never love a man,

Based on what my father did and is still doing,

Believing that the man I love would soon diss me,

Turn into him with all the drug addictions and consequences, 

Spending time in jail,

Always having his mother on his side to make bail,

I guess I just don't want my heart to get broken again,

Thinking he's the reason that I can't love a man for being him,

Thanking him for believing in me and leaving me alone,

Stood right by my side whenever I was feeling the need to leave home,

Searching wasn't getting me anywhere if I didn't know who I was exactly looking for,

Just knowing that someday he'll come knocking on my door,

Now I know I am fortunate to one day fall in love,

But I can't take what my father did out on him,

Going to church to relieve me of my sins,

Knowing that keeping it all inside,

Shame would always be something that I would try to hide,

This is something that I should have done a long time ago but I know that one day I will get pass the pain and live,

Realizing to live my life peacefully through god, my father I will forgive him